Stanly (Cats)

seems ive bad luck with cats now that i think about it. just had to throw stanly out at 5am today, she pissed on the couch again. what the hell did i just do?? i put her outside!? sure i cried, but, i seem to have gotten over it a little, which seems horrible. i was alot like her too, she was always scared and slept in my bed and ran away from challenges. she wont make it outside, if i see her, well, i couldnt take it.

so my first cat, amber had similar urinary problems, tho she was much older and my stepdad claimed he was allergic to cats, she had to stay outside and the neighbors took care of her. to see her like that was show sad, she could hardly meow. that cat was around when my mom and dad were still together. we got stanly (left) and sebastian (right) at about the same time a couple years before we moved to california. sebastian was my favorite, he was a cat that just didnt give a crap, dogs, bugs people, he was really laid back. later he got sick and got better once but later it got worse, he also had urinary problems but its much more common in persian cats. i cant stand to think of him in his last days, he had to wear one of those cones so he wouldnt lick off his stiches and ointment. at the vet they eventually found out that he had tumors and was beyond saving so he was put down. now stanly was kicked out, i dont even know if i should feed her, earl might do something if she hangs around the house. but if i dont shes going to die most likely, unless someone else feeds her, she cant be outside like that, after all, she slept in my bed a whole hell of alot. i really love cats, but what tragic events, im sure ill love them still.

...i quit work this morning too, my moms pissed im sure, but i need to be with friends right now.

i went with marvin and kevin last tuesday to the anime club, bought some manga, posters and a small gundam model. swap magic works, yay.

maybe ill talk more about it later, but im going over to marvins soon.

please dont hate me kitties, i loved you all.